Psychosis Update
Nov. 20th, 2003 08:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
littlemooseMelanie the occupational therapist was here today... unscheduled visit, more about that in a mo. We went through some more of her factsheets, and made plans for her to take me into town in a fortnight as a kind of halfway step to going in by myself.
After she went mum cornered me, wanting to know if she'd talked to me about the whole long term 'where is this therapy taking me' thing. No, was the short answer. Boy was mum pissed off... you see Melanie was here early because mum phoned her a couple of days ago to tell her that I was down and depressed about the whole thing, Melanie only arranged the visit yesterday. I'd told mum as much when I got a little down about it a few weeks ago. Before I would have been pissed off about her going behind my back, but I understand that she wants to help, and I appriciate it. I guess what worried me a little is that their whole priority seems to be getting me out and about, and little else. Melanie said to mum, that dealing with that was the final thing, the whole end piece, and she'd have a word with me today about what the whole thing entails.
She didn't. It took mum to tell me why she was even here in the first place.
I'm always left feeling a bit breathless by her visits, if I'm being honest. It's not that they're fast, she's usually here for about an hour... it's just that she sits and tells me all this stuff, and gives me all these handouts... and a lot of it I already know, but I'm damned if I can even get a word in to say as much...
And I'd just like to know what filling in all these worksheets and survey type things is going to do for me. It's not as if she's getting information, it's all 'for your own use, I'll just leave it with you and let you look over it in your own time'.
Mind, if it gets me out and about on my own without having a major panic attack, I'll not mind... it's just that that isn't all that's going on in my life... and I'm not even sure about the rest of it... oh I dunno, maybe I'm expecting too much.
After she went mum cornered me, wanting to know if she'd talked to me about the whole long term 'where is this therapy taking me' thing. No, was the short answer. Boy was mum pissed off... you see Melanie was here early because mum phoned her a couple of days ago to tell her that I was down and depressed about the whole thing, Melanie only arranged the visit yesterday. I'd told mum as much when I got a little down about it a few weeks ago. Before I would have been pissed off about her going behind my back, but I understand that she wants to help, and I appriciate it. I guess what worried me a little is that their whole priority seems to be getting me out and about, and little else. Melanie said to mum, that dealing with that was the final thing, the whole end piece, and she'd have a word with me today about what the whole thing entails.
She didn't. It took mum to tell me why she was even here in the first place.
I'm always left feeling a bit breathless by her visits, if I'm being honest. It's not that they're fast, she's usually here for about an hour... it's just that she sits and tells me all this stuff, and gives me all these handouts... and a lot of it I already know, but I'm damned if I can even get a word in to say as much...
And I'd just like to know what filling in all these worksheets and survey type things is going to do for me. It's not as if she's getting information, it's all 'for your own use, I'll just leave it with you and let you look over it in your own time'.
Mind, if it gets me out and about on my own without having a major panic attack, I'll not mind... it's just that that isn't all that's going on in my life... and I'm not even sure about the rest of it... oh I dunno, maybe I'm expecting too much.
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Date: 2003-11-20 02:09 pm (UTC)This post finally made the pieces click into place, I kinda know what's going on now. I'm sorry for pestering you to come to Manchester :) I remember Mike mentioned a road trip a long time ago, we should try and make that a reality at some point, I know as much that Louise wouldn't mind meeting you, and I want to see how you're getting on with Pokémon :D
*hugs*
hey
Date: 2003-11-20 03:32 pm (UTC)Really dunno what else to say at this point... u have me email if u wanna blah....just keep focused on the getting out and about bit and you'll be fine :o) and u have a great few friends, same as me, who are there for u if u need them xxx
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Date: 2003-11-20 04:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-21 03:17 am (UTC)you have a good point there..
big hug... if you feel the need to rant, I'm here. Got nowhere else to be :-)